十二月, 是一个多雨的月份，天气阴阴的，让人心情有点down。觉得在这个时候，听《寂寞的季节》特别有Feel。
连续几年的这个月份，从朋友那儿接到一些不是那么好的消息，所以一到这个时候，总会有些担忧。
再多几天，就得向2008年说掰掰，太快了。回首看这一年，觉得自己过得懵懵懂懂的。身边的朋友都好厉害，像是练成了“透视眼”，比我还更了解自己。我忘了从什么时候开始，你们的身影，朋友传来的简讯，这一些对其他人一点都不起眼的事项，成了我每天的动力。感觉就像是打了根强心针，更有信心去面对每一天。虽然早已明白“天下无不散之筵席”，但一想到熟悉的一切将会被取代，不免让人伤感。
几米最新的作品《躲进世界的角落》中，有一段文字自己特别喜欢。“但愿在世界的任何角落里，每个人都拥有满满的幸福”–献给家人和朋友，在来临的2009年，一定要过得更快乐，更幸福！=）
和朋友聊天时，才发现原来自己心里的确有一把量尺，是有所要求的。不能。。。不能。。。 哈， 原来我也是个肤浅的人！太可怕了。。。
不知什么时候，渐渐恋上了步行。几乎每个周末，都非得给自己一段时间步行，同时也是独处，整理一些思绪的最好方式吧。。。
星期六看了《大学生了没》，讨论的课题是于星座有关。讨论的结果是烂好人的榜首是双鱼座。因为他们常常会越帮越忙。哈哈。。。听了微微安老师的分析，我只能猛点头。心中不断在想：对！就是这样！虽然不能一竹竿打翻一船人，但最近所发生的一些状况与老师的分析非常吻合。哎，有时候总觉得自己真是“无路用”。。。
一切都非常得公式化。是过度谦虚惹的祸？一直以来，自己很清楚我只想尽本分，完成每一件差事。是过度谦虚？还是已经习惯将自己放在最卑微的位置去看待每一件事。原本只想像烟花一样，在生活最灿烂的那一刻消失。所有的一切都被打乱了。新年所得到的祝语依旧还贴在桌上-心想事成。真的能心想事成吗？一心只想做好本分，但从未想过极力争取。这是得过且过的心态吗？曾经何时，完成一份报告也得如此的挣扎。对一般人而言，一是写份报告，无痛无痒，需要怎么痛苦吗？其实，自己也不是很明白。（我想我快疯了吧。）快语无伦次了。疯了，疯了。
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以前，恋爱就是要执子之手，与子偕老。现在，我们只在乎眼前快活，最好没有负担曾经拥有就已很足够。爱情究竟变成了什么鬼东西……天晓得。
情人问，为什么你爱我？最安全，高深莫测的答案即是：“爱是无法解释的feeling。”事实上，你我口中的feeling, 多半已被基因，大脑决定。
就是喜欢你-莫名其妙喜欢一个人，因为费洛蒙在偷偷作祟。
为何爱情不能天长地久？-男女恋爱时，脑内会分泌苯基乙胺，当它的浓度急速增加时，让人产生“一直想在一起”的感觉。可惜它无法持续分泌，随时间流逝，分泌会减少，感受器也会变迟钝，最后产生厌倦感。
也不知为什么，这几天，心痛的感觉突然涌上心头。原来心痛真的能让人窒息！这感觉好强烈，好强烈。自己就快要喘不过气来了。怎么办？为什么会心痛呢？到底心痛的原因是什么？自己还没找到答案。看来它还会逗留一些日子才会消失。请给我对抗它的力量！我一定要想办法除去这个“坏东西”。快走开！快走开！离我远一点。。。。。。
As we bid goodbye to 2007, there’s some reflections about 2007. Thanks to 2 of my friends… AT least through them, I began to understand myself better. Some incidents happened and I suddenly realised that I know nothing about my friends. However, it always seems that others will understand me better, a lot better than myself. When I looked back, I realised that I don’t really know all my friends very well. Oh dear, I have been shutting my eyes and ears, closing my heart during my daily interaction with my people. I’ve been isolating myself, building that invisible wall. When have I started to build that wall? Unknowingly… Was it after the condition? Hmm… after checking with the other friend, I realised that I’ve been labeled as the ‘abnormal’ since many many years back. Haa…
Perhaps in 2008, my resoultion is to be a better person… one that will truly reach out to others. Not easy ba.. will try…. will continue trying….Thanks to both of them that I finally get to know who I really is. 2008… …
Hmm… Seemed to have been bitten by the fitness bug’… Have been going for regular exercises for the past one month. Realized that stamina and fitness is really on the declining stage when we bid goodbye to PE lessons.. But the past one month seemed to be fruitful when arms seemed to have toned up a little(hee… soon will be armstong) Hopefully I will persevere…
Recently heard Penny’s latest album on FM, felt that her song "Travel alone" is quite catchy…. caught myself humming to the tune… How great will it be if we are able to accomplish the things stated in the lyrics… Those who longed for a holiday, this may served as a getaway for you.
So, when is the holiday??
It is a real torment for me… watching my love ones aging slowly. Even though I know that this is a process that no man can avoid, but it is really overwhelming, too overwhelming for me. The hands that we used to hold on became weak and wrinkled. The once thick black hair now is covered with sliver lining. The strong and sturdy built now became a hunch on the back. Argh…
One of my love ones is not in the pink of health lately… All of us are kinda of at a loss too. He mentioned to me, once a person gets old and useless, time to discard him. I think his health is giving him lots of negative thoughts. Besides feeling helpless, What else can I help him? He told me that he will ‘discard’ himself, he even quoted me an example of someone whom he knew disappeared for half a year even though the person mentioned to his wife that he’ll be back for his meal. OMG…. What is he thinking about? Following the footsteps of this person? Tried my best to assure him that things will be fine.
REALLY worried. What is he thinking about? Hoping hard that he will sense that actually all of us are there for him. He will not do the things which are the results of his negative thinking.
Hoping… Hoping…. Hoping….
There’s a sense of weariness within me. The feeling is getting more intense as days goes by. I just don’t know the reason. However, there’s this feeling that work is drowning me. Really tired day after day, feeling that the energy within me is depleting. Gradually, slowly….
Getting more lethargic… Just the thought of this makes me shutter… Oh no… Are there any ways that I could charge this energy level? Thought that those motivational books could psycho me… Haiz… Just for short term and everything will be back to normal again.
Getting numb to the things around me… Ｉalways thought that I could try to divert this thought by placing more emphasis on family and friends around me. But things are not always going in the way that you want it to be…
Think I’m back into my own ’shell’ again….
